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6:41 PM
MY MUM DOESNT HAVE TO GO FOR SURGERY!!!
Okay. the bad news? Or the bad thing? the bad effect?
She doesnt want an operation. Where got patients say they dont want surgery seh. It;s like. if you're supposed to go, you go. But my mum actually said this..
"If I need to go for a surgery, make that after my daughter's olevel."
Omg, I was like -open jaws-. I dont know if that's a good or bad thing. I kinda scolded her for going against the doctor's advice. But she die die want it after my o's if she really has to. I was just.. speechless.
I dont know what else to say. But this shows that a mother's love cannot be compared for anything else. anything else, in the world.
So, she just reached home cause it's no use keeping her in the hospital.
Should I feel relieved or bad? Because if anything happens, it's partly my fault.
My fault.
11:59 AM
So, PLEASE READ THIS POST. thankyou, I rally appreciate it.
A very long post. A very very long post.
MY LIFE STORY.
oh, the gist of it.
Just for you curious souls, i swore to myself that i;d open up on on this blog as much as possible because i dont care what people say about me.
Here goes..
My mum has a cronic heart disease. Incurable. Eversince she was born. But only showed the symptoms when she was 12 when she fell down. After that time, she couldnt walk much. She couldnt think much. She was hospitalised. In out in out. But that never stopped her fighting spirit. She went on. & on. She did well in o's but couldnt go jc because she was sick.
She was an angry young lady. She went on to pre-university where she excelled, but fell sick again on her last year. In out in out, all over again. She even had stroke went she was 19. Her left side is slightly limped. Her left hand cant move it's fingers. Her left leg is limp-ish. Because the right brain controls the left side of the body, she became less creative, less musical. Everything to do with right brain.
Eventually, she dropped out. She didnt wanna give up.
But my grandfather stopped her from schooling altogether.
After all & all, my mum worked as a banker & teacher. Part time, so that she could come and go anytime she wanted and could. I admire her for this. I swear those fucking spoilt brats probably shortened her life span, but she didnt give up.
My mum's a smart smart woman. She always got top in every subject (haha so hanliang), but she cant continue school life anymore. It was taking a toll on her. I told you, studying kills. bwahaha.
Eventually, she married my dad, the famous JAIS. My dad was on the way to becoming a gangster, but he stopped himself and went sailing instead, cause that was the trend that time. Such a sheep, huh. He got into the top classes, got top five in the school from sec1-3. But eventually, bad influences pulled him down. Down. Down. Another reason why he went sailing was because of his mediocre O's result.
I swear to god that my dad is one smart guy. You should read the essays he writes, the maths questions he solves. And one day, i found his studying schedule. It was organised!!! EVERYDAY (even at sec2), he studied 3hrs a day. And in btwn, he goes for optional classes with other classes. I admire him for that.
They got married.(: Marlinda & Jais. My dad still continued sailing. It was a good job at that time. But he had to travel for 4-6mths and then come back for 2-4mths, and go again. Good life? It was for him. To tell you the truth, he has gone to almost every country in the world. Test him? Ask him about some country, he;ll tell you. My house used to be a mess with his souvenirs. Super antique souvenirs, but my mum asked him to give it away though. hahaha.
In 1988, my mum conceived TWINS!! Girl twins!!! Imagine their joy.
Unfortunately, knowing my mum;s condition, the doctors coaxed her to abort the baby cause it was gonna kill her. Either one twin, both twin or her dies. She didnt care. She was in love with the lump(s) on her stomach.
Unfortunately, but fortunately, she had a miscarriage. She told me before. She felt like her stomach was a washing machine. It kept gurgling. And then one by one, the lumps dropped out of her vagina. She never teared when she told me. But i heard she cried and almost died of severe depression because of the miscarriage.
And the saddest thing? My dad was overseas at that time. He was at some ulu country, and they couldnt contact him. He only got the news a few days later. I dont know whether he cried or not, but he was very depressed at that time. First child. Make that, children.
And then, along came NUR HIDAYAH JAIS, yours truly. hahaha(: And again, the doctors asked her to abort me. But she didnt, she wanted kids. Because she loved them. She had so so so much fighting spirit, i dont know how she did it. If normal mothers had to visit the doctor once a month, she had to do it 20 times more. Her heart was weakening. "Your child or you." She didnt care. She prayed. She believed. She fighted. My dad stopped working as a sailor and found odd jobs in singapore. With a not-so-good olevel cert, he couldnt go far. He worked as anything, just to make things happen.
..And I was born! (: I was a good kid. I was normal. Came out of the vagina with no complications. I was cute. I was PINK. hahahaha. I was so normal. haha. I nearly got anaemia, but i didnt. nyeahah miracle baby.
My dad had difficulty finding a job becaus of two reasons. One, his poor certificates. Two, he didnt have any experience with land jobs. But he worked on what he knew his last asset was.. muscles. He carried stuffs. I really dont know what he did. But he did something.. His veins are popping.
A year later, came another child. No, not jamal. Another guy/girl. It got miscarriaged only two months after conceiving. TWO MONTHS. Imagine her agony. You don't even know whether it was a boy or girl. At least my parents thought of a name for the twin girls. My parents never told me, until one day my grandmother told me about it. He/she doesnt even have a grave. For your info, my mum has never gone to my twin sisters' grave because it is sooo tiny and depressing, she'd kill herself if she looks at it. So, needless to say, i;ve never looked at them. Much less, my younger twomonth-miscarriaged sibling.
A year later, came JAMAL. The ugly gigantic freak. He was like damn damn dam damn damn damnnnn cute was he was small, i swear. Cuter than me (I admit). But now he's no longer cute. Growing hair on legs already. ahahaha gross.
My brother was an idiot. He was a breech baby. Imagine the complication!! The doctors couldnt cut open my mum's stomach because she would have more complications with her heart, and both would die :S So anyways, his legs came out first. Then the hands. His heads were still hanging in there, probably suffocating. Now I know why he can hold his breath the longest. hahaha. He suffocated in my mum's thingy still while his body was hanging outside, swaying. Haha, i was laughing when they told me this. But nevertheless, he became cuter than me. But still, guys are disgusting. He was hyper-ed. Dont know what happened, probably used up all his energy when he was young. haha. Teenagers these days..
We lived in pasiris. But later shifted to tampines (cadence's block!). Mine was a cute three-room flat. I remembered the kitchen was bigger than anything else. Who the hell sits at the kitchen right? Stupid architects.
My brother & me slept on bunk beds from 5-10yrs old. We used to alwyas switch places; top & bottom. I remembered my cousins would come over and jump jump jump. Hahaha we were proud of our beds.
However, my dad was alwyas stressed out. (Still odd jobs) We were beaten up as kids. I'm not calling it abuse, so please dont misunderstand and think my dad is Incredible Hulk, because he's not. However, whatever, we never got different treatment. It was alwyas equal. My mum was a great lover. I swear. I admire her. She really wanted kids (and a husband, ofcourse). and when she did, she took care of them like gems. But still, being the eldest, I was alwyas picked on. dooda. But i'm not complaining. It taught me to be tough & alwyas speak up.
My brother & I got too old for each other. We couldnt share rooms anymore see. Cause it;s just wrong. So we shifted to pasiris! when it was june p4 for me. Another cute yet spacious four-room flat. I changed school, so did my brother. It was quite fun lah. I was still innocent.(:
I met this tough, tomboyish girl. And we were both tomboyish together although I dont like girls at all. Haha, dont know abt her. I was guy-ish, I swear. But that was end of p4 and p5. After that, my new bestfriend & I started some lame "Sisters of Destruction" crap. hahahaha! We laugh over it all the time. Such innocent, naive days. I think I was evil lastime. Bullied shaun. Bullied lutfi too i think. But hey, we got bullied too. And those guys who act tough, are my brother's friends now.
But primary school was fun. Noone cared about anything. I atill remember my PE teacher used to say, "Guys wear underwear so that their balls dont jingle, and girls wear bra to stop their balls from jingling too. Haha jingling." & jingled his keys. We were primary four.
My mum went in out in out of hospital. It became my 2nd home already. I knew every part of the hospital. Singapore General Hospital. Just ask me where the toilet, lift, staircase, wards, shops, canteen are, & I'll tell you. I had too much time to run, play & walk around. And that was all when I was young.
Eventually, my dad got a stable job. He got promoted fast. He worked in some island, something to do with oil refinery. So, a lot lot of sea experience is appreciated. He was very proud. But as time passes by, Singapore gets more sadistic too. They increase hospital bills. 1/4 of my dad's salary goes for stupid cpf, the half of the remains were for my mum's hospital bills, excluding checkups. Can you imagine our financial crisis. Yet, he never told us. but i knew all this.
As i told 4V and 4S, my dad would skip meals just so that he can give me that few bucks for pocket money. I was a slut. I was unappreciative. I'm a bitch. So, my mum's hospital bills bring down the whole financial thing. We could have gone for holidays every year, bought a car, if she didnt have such things. But then again, if my mum didnt have these medical problems, we would be a rich family. Imagine that. Haha cool eh, and many siblings! Okay okay continuing.
My dad is alwyas too nice. He once lent his fucking friend money, about 4000 plus, because he said he had family problems. You know what he did? He fucking gambled away the money, and brought his fucking family to fucking holiday. And then he;d say sorry, and ask for more, promising to return. But he never did. He disappeared. Oh yah! I saw his daughter the other day. She's in Millenia Institute. Junji if you;re reading this, this is the reason why im not going there anymore. I would stalk and burn her dad if i go to that school.
When I was in primary six, my mum went for her 6th HEART OPERATION (people die at their 3rd). All her operations involved taking the heart out and replacing it with another valve. A mitral valve (bio kids know this). Imagine.. She nearly died. But a miracle happened. Noone in singapore has ever lived through a 6th HEART operation. My brother & me were featured when we were born as miracle babies. haha so cute right! :p
I lived through secondary school. I dont know why I was alwyas so cheerful. I thought there was alwyas something wrong with me. Whothehell gets cheerful with a cronically sick mum at home. But my mum refused to be known as that. she lived as a normal mum would. But she doesnt wash the clothes and go to the market. Because she may fall over if she hangs the clothes, or she may die of heavy plastic bags for going grocery shopping.
My dad & I used to alwyas go to the market together. Because he loved the attention the chinese nyonya market people would give me. heh :p So, my dad would work from day to night day to night, and do this chore called wash clothes. My mum gets depressed because she feels useless, but she gets over it after my dad assures her.
In secone, a year after she had her 6th heart operation, she had her 7TH. 7TH HEART OPERATION. Fucking imagine. I really thought she was gonna die. But she didnt. Another miracle sia :D I cried outside the operating theatre. Cried nonstop. My lovable cousins took me to this prata shop near the hospital and bought me every prata flavour just so that i could eat. I finally felt happier. But the hospital, was depressing. I still remember how the outside of the operating theatre looks like. It was the 2nd level. I would sit at the staircase with my 2.5yr old cousin, crying. He would alwyas make me smile. The operation was 35hrs, I swear. My uncles sent my home from one time to another. 35hrs is no joke okay. Eventually, she lived through.(: Thank god. God bless!
I never told anyone before. The only thing I tell people is "oh, she's just sick." And the furthest I went was "heart stuffs." I never told anyone when she was warded. I alwyas pretend to go home first, but i would go there, even from sec1-4. Bet nobody knew. This is the first time i told people about myself. I was living through a silent battle.
The truth is, this emotional (& distance) torment is killing me.
During that emotional lastday of motivational camp, I also shared this story.
There was this one night, my dad & I had a physical fight with each other. (I missed the physical part out because im afraid ya;ll would think he;s abusive) Obviously a man would be stronger than a girl. My mother & brother were speechless. My brother was about to come and pull us apart. But i screamed something stupid. Really stupid. "I hate you!!!!!!" How stupid could i get. He merajok-ed and stopped. He freeezed. "If you're not happy, just get out of this house ah!" I said, "okay." Stupid right? I just ran out. I would have called ayu or rahmat if anything happened. It was 12am plus already, on sunday night. I was walking aimlessly. And then my mum called relentlessly, i picked up. I was scared to go home. She nearly cried on the phone. I've seen her when my brother doesnt come home. She would stay up all night. And it kills me to know that. Eventually, I gave in and went home. I went straight to my room. I was out before that (Pirate of the caribbeans / stpat's fiesta day) and didnt even get to eat or bathe. I went school on monday only because i was scared to face my dad if i didnt go school. I havent talked to him since then until yesterday. Motivational camp. I said sorry. And said I Love You for the first time. But I have never seen my father cry. I think fathers are just tearless. They dont cry. Never seen him. Hopefully I dont have to see him that way.
Today i visited my mum after three days of not seeing her. Because she got warded on the first day of motivational camp. How motivating.
I heard some very unpleasant stuffs about the whole stupid results of the tests. The doctors are holding this conference where they're deciding what the next step is. 8th heart operation doesnt sound pretty at all. at all. My grandmother and my elder cousins were there. My grandmother is a very strong woman. She kept saying stuffs to my brother & me. So much that we forgot. Sometimes I wonder, we go the hospital so often, dont we realise that life & death is so near? We don;t. We get too used to it. "Hospital? Oh okay lorrrrrr. Go there, sit sit, read newspaper, talk talk, go home." The whole process drains the shit out of my dad, brother & I. We've done it so many times, we get sick of it. And the journey there takes 1hr20mins. Imagine back&forth. The repeated emotional drainage.
But after the whole process, I hug my mum, I kiss her. And tears stream down. And that is even before I speak. I'm a person in denial. I think that everything is okay. But when such instances take place, I let everything go. & it feels better. I swear. On the way home, I reflect, and think.. "this is all worth it. because I love her." I admit, I am an emotional girl.
But I still am optimistic, because I know eventhough I've been a bitch to my mum, I've loved her a lot. & she knows it. That;'s the best thing I could ever hope. To tell you truth, I;d rather her rest in peace than continue suffering in this cruel cruel world. I would leave it all to God. Because whatever happens, I know it;'s for the best.
For now, I'm still the happy & cheerful hidayah in school! See ya guys. I'm gonna try stop blogging (eventhough i love blogging a lot) for a long time.
It's the 4th of august, friday, 12.43am. But I'll just imagine it's 3rdaugust, thursday, 11.59pm. But still, on this 4thaugust, Happy 17th Birthday, Rahmat. =)
Love,
Nur Hidayah Jais.
3rd august'06.
6:03 PM
MARYANNE JUST GAVE ME SOHWEIJIE'S EMAIL :DDDD
So as to not forget, I added him on MSN Messenger. & obviously, he doesnt have one. Sooooo, they sent him an email, probably promoting MSN Messenger.
Hopefully hopefully hopefully, keep your fingers crossed, he downloads MSN Messenger.
Or we could all spam him to shutup in class.
One less irritant in class.(:
And and vikki telling me that. Sohweijie found gv's blog and printed it. And became so psycho-ly angry at her.
Omg omg, everything;s too funny. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
cadence- Maths was the hilariousest thing sia :D Hahaha he wont find my blog lah. I want his email though :p
gixxer- yup, was you. heh.
zameer- HAHA we're menawan!! I purposely put the unglam one. hahahaha.
fors- stupid stupid swj. this whole tagboard is full of his name. eew ewwwww.
My blog layout appears soooo tiny on aisya's comp!! hahaha.
Yesterday, was a blast :D Okay, kind of. It was lah. Because it was guohao's celebration day.
Had lots of lessons at school in the morning. (that wasn't a blast)
We went pizza hut.
Syl, bennyteo & me got him a set of coloured pens. (which ais&me can kope for the Motivational camp :D)
We didnt eat much.
It costed much though.
Guohao wanted to pay for everything. He waned to blanja us all. Su was so happy. hahaha. But nolah, very poor thing right. It was like $93 for 12 people including him. Syl, bennyteo, darren, raihan, welsonn, aisya, naf, su, hisham, cadence, me. & ofcourse, GUOHAO too :D
Somehow, syl, cad & me disappeared and rented House Of Wax from Video Ezy. & bought a Chocolate Truffle cake, a huge one :D as they made their way to ais' house.
We made our way to ais' house.
We lighted the cake outside ais' house.
Ais carried the cake. The moment we opened the door, the candles went off.
Sing sing sing.
Wached House of Wax.
Eat cake cake cake :D delicious-ism.
Stayed till 8plus.
Went for dinner at blk 168. the coffeeshop near schoool!
Guohao, cad, syl, benny & me. I PRATA-ed :D Cad had chicken nuggets. haha random. I think benny blanjaed me. hahaha.
Cad & me took bus 12 home.
Waited for FOURTY MINUTES! fucking services.
FOUR BUSES CAME TOGETHER!!!!! Super fucked up right.
Three out of four were full. We took the uncrowded one. duh.
We were in the bus, syl,benny&guohao were home already.
Reached home at 11.30.
Slept at 12am. Exhausted to the max :D
My writing/blogging skills has gone down the drain. Because now, I think it's boring lah the way i type. geee kentot.
My auntie's not replying whether i should go to her place. So, Im not sure whether im free or not today. If i'm free, i shall attempt to study. But most of the time, end up using the comp or watching tv or sleeping or reading Readers' Digest till i rot to death. I dont even have a book to read.
Btw, I watched V For Vendetta twice for the past weekend. It was a superb show!! I loved it :D hahahahahahaha. 4stars(:
And House Of Wax yesterday was gory. The plot sucked lah. But the gore part was wahhhh.
Imagine getting waxed alive. ALIVE. You're still alive even after getting waxed. And when I scrape your wax away, your whole skin comes out. Still blooody. Fresh blood. You cant even scream or move. Just let the tears flow. Flow freeely.
Unfortunately, paris hilton didnt get waxed. wasted. Btw, I give it 3stars. geee.
Next week, from monday-wednesday is MOTIVATIONAL CAMP dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyys :D Hopefully it's gonna work for me. I need all the motivation in the world man. But then again, all motivation comes from your heart. Heart. From within.
So yeaahhh heh heh. No studying lah.
Bring jacket. & cushion (PILLOWS!!!) people. (:
I think Haagen Daaz should have funkier, hotter & more fun ways to afvertise their superbly delicious nice nice nice nice icecreams! :D Ben&jerry's won amongst the crowd because of the cool stuffs they put in their icecreams. & the names are coool too.
Fun&funky icecream: Ben&Jerry's :D
Classic& icecream: Haagen Daaz :D
Im craving for:
Famous Amos.
Burger King.
Chocolate cakes.
Ben&jerry's.
Bubble Tea.
And I'm neither pregnant nor depressed. Please someone, surprise me.
Duh, noone.
8:37 PM
Aight, I'm gonna bathe now :D
Hoho, he didnt go schoool today. awwww.
hahahaha. :P
I choose my tv shows to watch.
Desperate Housewives!
CSI.
Project Runway.
Not any others. All other other shows are dumb. esp local tv shows like Abc Dj & Maggie mee.
What nots. All nonsense.
What a boring para. HAHAHA.
Today for the first time in lala years, we're going out for lunch & bubbletea-ing again!! Corne, mish & me.
All fun's been lost with smt. fucked-up smt. loser smt. I admit it's good. But they started it since the starting of this year. Noone feels the effect anymore. Effect's all been lost. You get soooooo exhausted, you just wish time extends to 40hrs a day. Just sleep & sleep & sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppppppppp.
How dumb.
Oh yes. Soh weijie stomped out of class today. yahooo! hahahaha. Because apparently it was 42 people against 1. We were all like rolling eyes, screaming, shouting and scolding him for being a jerk and irritant and class-spoiler. A pest. Big fucking pest.
& before that, in maths classs. I sacrificed my tiny eraser so that aisya can aim it to his head. HAHA.
Unfortunately, it didnt hit his head. Hit his shoulders though. He turned so swiftly that i could imagine the swiiiissssshhh-ish sound. hahaha! He was looking angrified & all. I swear we were at the verge of hysteria. Laughing hysterically :DD
But still. He's mentally retarded. As in really, truly, seriously. Not just saying to spike him. So, I still forgive him. But he should just shut up. Period.
Gonna celebrate guohao's birthday tomorrow.(: His birthday was on the 27th.
Btw, I think girlfriends/boyfriends get the best presents ever. Seriously. I'm not materialistic, but don't you get jealous sometimes? It'll be like some super huge huge thingy. Handmade, bought, LOADS OF IT. You name it. It's just so sincere, you feel the love. But of course, friends give the best presents tooo. It's all so bimb & fun, you feel like hugging them each time you look at it :)
But. Gosh. Next time, be a _ _ girl. Grab any guy/girl just bfore your birthday. Esp a rich one. & just dump him after that. HAAAHHHHH. quite normal for some, ain't it?
Aight. Eye candies. & who I really like. (:
6:24 PM
OHHHHH-KAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY. (the hard gay way)
I FOUND FIFTEEN $2-NOTES JUST OUTSIDE TEMASEK PRIMARY SCHOOOL!!!! Actually it was beside the playground near temasek primary school.
Omg. that'a freaking $30!!!! vwhgfrhgahahahaha,
Eh im happy okay. I know you;re thinking $30 isn't much. But I;m not a lucky girl. I dont find stuffs like these. While other people find branded phones or wallets with blue note(s), I find nothing. Nothing at all. So, today's the first!! fwghrgahahahaha excited.
Mishh & me were walking to that 12 bustop, and talking talking. Then suddenly, i stopped on my tracks & saw a wad of notes on the pathway.
My eyes widened.
My heart beat faster.
MONEYYYYYYYYY!!! HAHAHA. Okay dont get me wrong, I'm not materalistic. I even hate shopping. But omg, it was so exciting.
Mish & me laugh and laughed and laughed and laughed while picking up the money.
We split the money lah.
Before that, we went 7-11 to buy a drink, and donated $0.40 change to charity, saying thanks to the guy who blessed us.(: yay.
But still, we had $14 each!!! :DDD
And you know what? I thought we were on some kinda Reality Show, which potrayed how kids these days do not have integrity. because almost everyone at the playground were looking at us. Anyways, we cant possibly go to the police with a mere $30 right?
So there's that.
I'm happy, you're happy, everyone's happy! Especially mish&me :D
9:12 PM
Oh oh! Aisya & me are investing in a group/clump of colour pens for ourselves to use for the rest of the yr. & we'll divide accordingly when we have to part from each other at the end of the year.(:
And besides the fact that loads or ridhwan's classmates are reading my blog, my classmates are making fun of me. haha but it;s hilarious.
I cringed at the greenplate stall when danial went all like, "ehh ehh hidayah, ridhwan ridhwan. muscle man. push upppsss. heh hehhhh." I nearly died. hahahahahaha.
Oh yes yes.
Do not judge a book by it;s cover. Haha so cliche seh. Anyways, I think he;s nice underneath all the tough (and flirty) attitude. hahaha. Sincere or not, is another question.
YAY. AISYA'S BECOMING A KC GIRLLLLL. She's wearing one of those hairbands and tying her hair likethat. even if her hair's always been tied likethat. but ohmygod, the whole ensemble is geeeee. & gosh, she looks like one of them.
And guess what, HAHAHA. She forgot to bring her malay book today ah. so she borrowed from one of the Visiting Schools students' pile of books.
First page : Angela BLAHBLAH, Katong Convent.
We laughed so loud, cikgu got our joke. & couldnt help grinning along. It's a universal girl (from co-ed schools) thing. Understanding one another. GRWFRAAHAHAHA.
Let me search for the photo..
Racial Harmony Day. Seeeee, I told you. HAHA.
I shall post racial harmony photos soon.(:
I'm bored...
You know what? this post is so mundane & boring. -rolls eyes.-
HAHA! rolling of eyes is soooooooooooooo one-of-those-girls. FRHGWAHGFRAHAHA.
1:50 PM
And oh yeah. I hate fucked-up attitude guys. Gee, who doesnt. But guys are worse than girls. Cause they always pretend to be nice after that.
DOODLES.
Yesterday was yet another random day. I thought i wouldnt go out lahh. Stayed home, almost rotting. till 6 when meroy called out for dinner.
LALALA.
It's gonna be a whole load of rubbish and boredom if i blabber on about what happened and all.
All & all, I've been eating chicken as my proteins source since thursday till today. My mum cooked dishes encircling chicken, yesterday also meroy bought a whole load of chickens n chicken satays & that purple-plate stall at school has been selling those huge huge chickens with rice.
Maybe naz & farah would be happy that I'm gonna start having babats like them. yay. Okay, take back what i say. HAHA. I keep telling them i DO have babats, but they dont wanna believe. Okay, good for them.
But noone's complaining, because I LOVE CHICKEN :D
Oh oh, my dream.
I dreamt that there was a group of people with me doing some kinda lego sculpture at PLAZA SINGAPURA. (So chocolate day montage..) We competed with other groups. After making the huge huge sculpture, we were supposed to save a bunch of kids & a teacher at some shop in plaza singapura called "Cut the chilli crab." whathehell! HAHAHA.
And so, for three days & three nights, we made the sculpture. We were the fourth out of the 10 groups. But none of the groups knew where the shop was.
SUDDENLY, I suggested the 7th level of plaza singapura. SEVENTH. haha. We all couldnt use the lifts & the escalators were still. So we had to climb the still escalators.. It took damn long.. all the way to the 6th floor. But there weren't any stairs or escalators to the 7th floor!
So we saw a string. But it was rafia string which was all fray. So one of my guy grpmembers took the tens of benches there and stacked it up. THE WIND BLEW AND THE BENCHES ALL DROPPED TO THE FIRST FLOOR. HAHAHA. Whathehell! Where did the wind come from sia.
And then, I went to the toilet to WASH MY HAIR, and saw some emergency room leading to the 7th floor. It was a slide, & we had to climb the slide. HAHA.
Eventually, we reached "Cut the chilli crab" and it was a door leading to the roof! And then, we all saw the kids and a teacher. Guess who was amongst the kids?? HAKIMBO! HAHA. He's gonna die reading this. heh xD
He was like "we were gonna die if you didnt come an hour earlier."
And then, the kids and my groupmembers went to this bridge where there was a river. haha!
As they all crossed it, the centre of the bridge sagged into the water. And there were dolphins jumping over them. Omg, it was hilarious. But.. several kids were eaten by the dolphins. EATEN! hahahaha.
Hakim & me backed out. We took the teacher's scarf (there were two) & parachuted from the 7th floor to the 1st floor, in plaza singapura. HAHAHA.
And then, we appeared in bus 12 in the morning in school uniform where there were dolphins, only dolphins. They started speaking in this weird language.
And then! HAKIM TURNED INTO A DOLPHIN. HAHAHAHA.
& I WOKE UP.
Omg. My imagination's killing me :D
ps. I love you mishhh. & be now, you'll be happy! WISH YOU THE BEST OF THE BEST :D hahahaha.
8:55 PM
SCHOOL IS SUCKING THE LIFE OUT OF ME. Actually us all. All of students. Fuck.
But hoho, we cant complain, can we.
Nevertheless, it's been crazy still. & in my dictionary, "CRAZY" is a good thing. Except maybe soweijie =x
FIRST & FORMOST.
THOSAI or tosei or thosei or tosai, however you spell it.
It was sour. It was not hot. The potatoes were all there, scrunched up together. (Okay, the last one is an exaggeration)
BUT. The papadom (crackers) rock, together with the curry. Eventhough the curry's a bit too sweet. Sweet sweet curry. hahaha.
& Eating on banana leaves at the hall floors with our hands isn't a really bad thing. It was quite cute.
These are all part of Racial Harmony. Hahaha, so much for harmony when everyone was ignoring the singing Ashwin. HAHA! For those non-secfours, for your info, ASHWIN SANG ALONG TO SOME TAMIL SONG ON THE MIKE & NOBODY LISTENED TO HIM. MWUAHAHA.
& & &!! Sohweijie was being crazy, as usual. We pushed his bag all the way to the back. Maryanne even screamed "EE! EEEE! EEE!!!!" when the bag was shoved to her side. hahahaha. Oh he even gobbled down 4i's extra thosai meals. I think he ate about FIVE PLATES. That's whack. He just folded the thosai pancake and stuffed it in his mouth, together with the curry & chutney & papadom. GRWAHAHA funny eh. He nearly jumped when I said "wahlaoo." HAHAHAHA aight.
SECONDLY, the reason why I go school on friday eventhough it's a super redundant day is PE. yay!
This is soo random. But ridhwan was looking hot doing those pushups. wahahahahahaahahaha. He did it with one hand okayy?? ONE HAND. And he could even laugh & joke while doing it. He's well-known for his muscularness (besides joash). Haha secretly proud of him. LOL.
So. I was pretty much distracted lah. Because we were playing soccer at the basketball court. & the goalpost was that tiny space in btwn the basket poles. IMAGINE HOW SMALL. I was just standing there. Stupid danial failed to undistract me.
Haha digression. Aight, PE ROCKED. as usual :D No biasness, everybody goes together. Maybe except those taitai people in our class. Gee, for once, please let go of each other. But oh well. It rocked. The guys & girls were all going crazy. hahaha. Someday, I'd wish to have maryanne with the girls. wahaha it;'ll be cute. She;ll probably kick the ball to everybody. Or better still, we'll ask sohweijie to play, & then we can torture him. nyeahahaha.
I know I'm superbly evil. But I wish he gets beaten up by some group of ahbengs or something & learn his lesson to not be irritating & act as if he owns the class. Geee.
Okay shutup, hidayah. I believe in karma :S
THIRDLY. Okay. This is no fun crazy thing. It was the english oral prelimns.
It;s gonna be damn boring if I tell you about my experience. hahaha.
But I'll place the Conversation questions here for you lalafreaks to ponder over & imagine how I would answer.
"What is one thing you really wished you had told someone?" AND
"How far do you agree that Singaporeans take their lifestyles for granted?"
Right.
OKAYLAH. That;s all that happened these two days. That's about the outline of it. fwahaha.
Anyways. Don't think I'm going out this weekends. But then again, hey hey, I may just go out if someone suddenly asks especially when I'm bored.
I was telling mish that I should find a scandal or some guy to date only on weekends. HAHA. Hey, life can be boring sometimes know. Now, as of now, all my close friends (except corne & ruiqi & ayu) has their own guy/girl. at least ,at least someone. hohoho. I'm not complaining, I swear.
But it;ll be great to just go out. Haha male company. LOL, no intentions to get attached. In the meantime, I should just keep distracting myself with ridhwan during PE, or just imagine rahmat's talkative flirty soul. HAHAHAHAHA.
I dont know why. But i'm more open or tend to just let everything out in my blog. gee.
6:56 PM
Oh btw, your nick's HAKIMBO right? Farah & me were wondering if it means HAKIM BIMBO or just a cute name called HAKIMBO. hahaha BO as the act cute part. wahahaha :P
First & formost. My weekend was a blast!
Firstly, PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN!!!! It's a super super super hot show. Hilarious, funny. & of course my favourite eye candy, JOHNNY DEPP :D He's like the hottest papa in the world man. I wish I could at least see, smell, taste, touch or hear him live. Planting kisses on bustop boards or movie advertisements aren't exactly that nice, ya know.
Oh yeah. Okay. The show. It was great!! Giving it 5 out of 5 stars!!!! Because it was the best. 2nd's xmen (: It's so so so nice. & If you havent caught the show, you should bite your finger right now. Go bite! bite!
Secondly, there was Baybeats! gryaahaha. Hey, first times are always cool okay. So I was pretty much very pumped up & hyper. It kinds of pulls me away from wtv negative, bad, emo thoughts i was having for the whole of lastweek. I went for the saturday one. Went with my ex-primary friend. Met ayu there. (:
The moshing thing was great. Yet again, first time. Some do it crazily, some do it coolishly, some do it stupidly, some simply dont care about anything. & that was the thing of it all. Hot, stuffy & sweaty. But nothing beats releasing everything at such a place and situation. I swear I enjoyed myself.(: Millions of thanks to my bestfriend, ayuuuu. She brought me to this whole world/thing. yay <3
Aight. Thirdly, not that it was completely a blast, but at plaza singapura (which was where I watched piratesofthecaribbean), there was the Fiesta In The City. Twe was supposed to play lastyr! but stupid ouyang rejected the offer from moe. bitch. Aight anyways, this yr it's two places Botanic Gardens the week bfore. & then Plaza Singapura lastweek.
It wasn;'t a complete blast because that freak of the Sembawang won the Grooviest Band Award. To tell you the truth, they've been twe's nemesis. Okay, maybe their alumni. Because we used to call their drum major a cheap girl, "TENDOLLARS". Because she was wearing this cheap sluttish thing & dancing like some cheaper than cheap pole dancer with no pole for balloon hat 2yrs ago. Still rmbr siak. BWAHAHA.
Okay whatever. Stpats sounded good for that matter. But anything lah ah. hahaha. & dumb dumb, the stage was outside Plaza Singapura, in the middle of nowehere. grwahah.
Oh yes. It kinda brings pretty memories because if you've been to Plaza singapura late at night & even slept there, it's sweet to see it in broad daylight with so many people walking around. Still remember the toilet where they all washed their hair, the floor infront of Starhub where we slept, the travellator (flat escalator) where we rolled on. Was great siaaaaaa :D Hoho, everything's happening at Plaza Singapura. How wonderful. (:
Actually that was basically almost all that happened during the weekends! What a weekend sia :D unfortunately, there wont be anymore weekends like that to come. geee spoiler shit.
Aight, so. Besides the wonderful & successful weekend i had, this week has been not bad either.(:
RACIAL HARMONY DAY.
Hahaha the concert was the freaking most hilariousest thing ever :DD heh. And and and, phototaking will alwyas be my favourite thing to do. wheee. CAM-WHORING. I dont know who came out with that word, but i saw it somewhere. wahaha.
So proud of maryanne for going out to model for our class. Sohweijie, I dont know what to say.. He obviously went out happily. hur hur. wonder where he got his costume.
Aight, I dont think 4N shouldnt have won as the whole class thing. Because somehow, 5A has more effort as a class to wear mostly indian & they wore glamly. No offence to 4N aight? I loved yuanli! & zachary and weichoy is hilarious. Cross-dressing has never been better. But hey, congrats 4N.(: Oh yes, Kohan winning 2nd male? no no. I think fadz should have.
Aww man. I sound like I'm promoting and siding 5A. HAHAHAH. aight.
Okay, I'm gonna post the photos soon :)
& & & an analogy.
Nuriman is somehow like our darling Soh Wei Jie. (eeeew, not darling!) During the joint SMT justnow, nuriman kept cutting msyati to ask dumb inunderstandable questions. Familiar? Exactly like SWJ. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA.
Schoool is fucking tiring man. Lethargic days. As the weeks go by, we're all dying. Energy consumption increased. I'm gonna blog either two days once or even longer than that..
Holeass.
Aight. Good evening, world.
ps: who wants to sponsor a lil bit for the camera im saving for??
duh, noone.
7:57 PM
HAHAHAHAHA.
I basically went to the wrong gender toilet. AT ROXY SQUARE. Yes, that ugly disgusting toilet. Omg. Zomg. Womg. Homg. Yomg. Grossss.
But the toilet didnt have any of those standing-guy-pee place. Haha. So i happily thought it was a women's toilet. Stupidly, there was a man there.
"Hey hey.. Uhhhm."
"Uhhh. Hey!"
"Youu.."
"YES??"
"YOU'RE IN THE WRONG TOILET."
I screamed in his face.
Okay, I looked around and saw all men before screaming in his face. I was soooo embarassed. And all those women who saw me exit the toilet were gawking at me. Fucking malu okay. HAHAHA.
I should have realised how disgusting it was. Guy's toilets are disgust. gee.
So, I'm sorrry. forgive me.
School was great. Because you get to meet your friends. Even if they irritate you till your brain feels like they are being sucked out, they are still friends. Friends
Friends will stand by you no matter what. Friends will love you a lot. Friends will not let you live by yourself. Friends will not use you.
Okay. STOP IT, DAYAH. I'm starting to have this angsty notion all of a sudden.
But nope, I'm fine. okay. happy.(: GLADDD. somehow so.
Oh hoho, glosz is a fucking slut. I hate him now. First, he cheated my feelings. "Nolah, no need audition at all. Don't worry, you;ll get in." Slut.
And he kept scrutinizing and killing and slaughtering my section just now. What a slut. I only decided to visit band for a while, & im seeing all these nightmare-ish stuffs. Wonder what he does when I'm not around.
I know as of now, to tell you the truth, my section is the worst section. And come to think of it, we got the Best Section Award just a year ago. How sad ): From zero to hero. & back to being zero again. I hate juniors who give stupid reasons for not coming and not practising. JUST QUIT BAND LAH. bitches. And poor people get scolded & humiliated & scrutinized like crazy.
I love my cornet section so much.
But like my batch, we were the worst section in the band. I swear. That was 3yrs ago. We were really bad. We all sucked. Our sl was at the verge of giving up. But after they graduated, we rised up to the occasion. & did the best. And there, Best Section Award. I can cry thinking about how much shit we went through. Nevertheless, I believe in you guys now okay, darlings. <3
Aight. I love friends.(: & just now was the first time I played my cornet again!! :D after 4mths. So long siak. I feel my lip muscles disintegrating & screaming at me to stop. hah.
10:36 PM
This is my fourth fuck post.
There;s so so so much hostility at home right now. My dad, mum & brother. I dont know about my brother. Anyways today, after my mum went for the make-up parentmeetteacher thing today, it's been like shit now.
She's screaming to me nonstop.
My dad's just keeping quiet. Not talking to me at all.
I dont know where dinner is. Luckily ate dinner out.
She's all scolding me eversince i stepped home.
Fuck lah okay. I really meant to do my malay hw. & that study physics today. But whathefuck. I'm not gonna make them think that i studied only because my teachers talked to my parents & now they are screwing me upside down. I STUDY FOR MYSELF. I DO HOMEWORK FOR MYSELF. Fuck.
And fuck. See my status? Away? I'M REALLY AWAY. Busy? IM REALLY BUSY. But do parents realise this? fuck no. Teachers too. Fucking hell. I hand in my homework in time alr. Except for that last 2 karangans. It's no fair. Why only me? ONLY me. I hope cikgu chances upon this and sees this for herself. Not msyati though, she;ll give me hell. HELL.
And to make matters worse, my teachers make it sound as if i;ve been like this since the day i was born. Fuck lah. & about that not wanting to study crap, I was just joking. Now my parents think im gonna get pregnant with some stupid brainless mat or be with some sexy curvacious lesbian. fuck no.
They dont believe i have no boyfriend. Of all people, between all my friends, I'm the only lala here who doesnt believe in love nomore. Love, like, infatuation, lust. Hell no. And even names like corne, russell, meroy, kekang, benny, rahmat sounds like my boyfriend. Okay rahmat was my exboyfriend. But still. What kinda parent think im a slut that way? SLUT??
And everyone has to make it worse by being inconsiderate like talking about the guy who broke my heart like crazy. Stop fucking talking about him. I still like him okay. So shutup. It doesnt help that you keep getting pissed with people. & you keep picking on them. And you just expect me to laugh it off. And yes, nobody sees me in my real mood.
The only sane person who i spend my whole sch life with is aisya & mish. I spend a whole day with aisya. We laugh. Because she's not irritating & she doesnt test my patience. that;s why im happy when im out at school. And i go home with mish almost everyday. My life is better & happier & smilier that way. Even people are making my blood boil. Don't you know the right time to joke, the right time to shut up and just let the person off. It's not funny sometimes. But you;'re my friends. And that matters. So i just smile & laugh. hur.
And ofcourse teachers dont know the fucking condition of parents these days. I tell you, my mum is not normal. She wasnt those diabetic people who got it when they are older. she got since birth. I almost got fucking anaemia because of that. And i dont wanna act like some kinda sympathetic brat. But man, sometimes people can be so bustard about it. shut up okay. Noone's perfect like you.
But the purpose of this blog has to be fucking teachers. They should have some kinda brain scanner. To scan my brain. See what im going through. Noone knows what goes on at home. Noone gets to alwyas buy phone, get mp3s, go shopping all the time, eat dinner at expensive retaurants all the time, go holidays whenever they want, ask for money whenever they want, have healthy mothers.
Fuck you lah, life.
And if you are judging me, go on. I dont know when i;ll ever blog again. Let this be some kinda parting post for my emotional problems for a while.
Sorry for all these people. I still love ya;ll. & i'll be happy when im around people, especially friends. Since my family are looking down on me. I wonder what msyati & cikgu said to my mum. Fuck all.
I'll be okay when daylight meets me again. So dont look at me differently.
Oh my dad's screaming.
Goodbye.
9:15 PM
Oh what the fuck.
Aight aight. PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN OPENS TOMORROW. But im not watching tomorrow though. Classes, shitass. Watching on sunday i think.(: But hey, the drama mama would be over. But whathehell.
Omg. My vulgar mode is really switched on. FUCK.
I am 23098294372395864 times disappointed over sajc's rejection of my dsa entry. I am sooo disappointed right now. It's not the matter of schoool. But the matter of being rejected. Now i know how most guys feeel.. ):
Aight. It started with xiuli's (an sajc cornet girl) msg. OUT OF THE 30 APPLICANTS, ONLY 11 GOT THROUGH. AND OUT OF THIS 11, ONLY TWO FROM TEMASEK. I am sooo whathefucked-ed. Kekang & mish got in. I can only say congrats. Really happy for them(: Good for her that she's glad that the person she hates aint going there.
As much as I sound like a freaking sore loser, I am . Admit that I am.
Xiuli & the sajc teacher's being all nice about it & want to get us all other pathetic freaks through. So there's still that 1% chance. 1% is like fuck. But oh well, my luck has been bad eversince the start of 2006. I swear. But anyhoos thanks xiuli(: So anyways. It;ll be a miracle if i get accepted through dsa. If i dont, I'd rather... darn, i dontknow what to do. I feel so lala.
Whatever.
Oh btw, the bringing of p4 kids around Asian Civilisation Musuem was great! Only an hour to spend with them. They were really nice stuffs. VERYVERYVERY CUTE :D VERY NICE toooo. Aight, other groups with ALL boys nearly died.
Woohoo, hotpants & longskirts :D
I hate being rejected :((((((((((((((((( first time i guess.
9:50 PM
YUM YUUUUUMMMMMMM.
For fucking's sake, my parents has never gone down for any teacher/principal-meet-parent(s) session. They're always too lazy. Unless something really bad happens, like a crime committed, then my mum/dad/both would come down, arghhhhhhh.
Omg omg. what is ms yati gonna say to my mum. If ms yati says really bad stuffs abt me, my mum would probably have to suffer a few days of heartache with me. Literally. She'll feel those weird heart pains and all. She had it real bad when my brother was being an asshole. But now, it's all back to normal. Darn ass lah. I hope ms yati says some moderate things abt me. I hope she sees that I'm trying damn hard to study & be attentive in class. Oh hoho. I'd rather I die than my mum die.
Okay maybe not.
Both of us should live.. (:
Yay aisya & me are gonna accompany a group of 15 p4 kids to the Asian Civilisation Museum for their heritage thingy or smthg. In other words, no smt! hah evil. But hey, i love kids :D p4 can be minimats and miniminahs. gosh yucks. hahaha.
We have to make worksheets for them. which we obviiously havent. Quizzing them. We slacked loads during our excursion. & now, we;ll get lost there. lolol:D
YAY KIDS.
Oh btw. our group's beautiful website
Aight aight aight. Anavil has strangled me for not acknowledging that he's my parttime/anyhow boyfriend. Haha anyhow eh ;p I dont know how this all started. But yeah. So now I've got a boyfriend & girlfriend. Anavil. & pamela. Haha boyfriend, not real boyfriend. Just play play.(: haha take note of that! lala.
Omg omg omg.
18thjuly is pamela's birthday. Okay pamela doesnt come online or use the comp. so yay. She wont see this :D Okay uhhh. the best is to make something mushy & orange & hot :DDD yay pamela.
Aight aight.
Pirates of the Caribbean is gonna be released this thursday! WOOHOOOHOO.
Aight bitches. WORLD PEACE. hahahahahaha .
9:16 PM
Okay so. Half were bleary-eyed, half werent. HAHAHA IT WAS HILARIOUS. nolah, not really. You hear these people arguing about it, that's funny. haha.
Aight. My life is some lifeless shit. Seriously.
1) I have no life.
2) I have no boyfriend, not that i really mind though.
3) My friends & I live in different worlds already.
4) I miss those days i could go out with random people. ANY kind of random people. From anywhere, everywhere.
5) This is redundant, but i feel ayu's pain of her not going to her favourite band's concert ie, Coldplay which is tonight. PLAYING NOW.
6) The stupid OM doesnt do anything about 4v's pathetic one-table recess life.
7) I get only 4bucks a day as pocket money. & every month, my dad has to stretch what's left of his money to 30days. I really feel like crying sometimes. But it's unfair, all my friends are at least two times luckier than me. But nope, I'm not complaining. Just a lil bit of envy&jealousy. But I love my family.(:
8) I'm under ms woon's intimidating list of failures in biology, although i didnt fail biology. I'm a loser.
9) My blog's dying.
10) I will never ever get to smell/ see/ hear/ taste/ touch johnny depp. HAHAHAHA.
11) My table's a warzone. & although it sounds like an excuse, I cant seem to study at all. Yes, I swear.
12) Sajc hasnt called me yet. Darn, feeling so rejected.
13) The stupid stupid cabfare has gona up by soo much. Rate going at 25% more (the meter would run faster). & surcharge is $2.00 intead of $1.00!! bitch.
14) Even that oldchangkee woman at whitesands looks like Psycho.
15) I'm feeling ugly. Oh shutup, dayah.
16) Everyday, everyday, I'll hit my forehead on that fusebox at the staircase on the way up to home. Omg, what a loser. Ultimate loser. Oh, bitch.
Whatever. Tomorrow's another longlonglonglong day in schoool. Oh wait, isn't it likethat everyday? hoho. I need my hot guy aka sleep ):
Btw, you know the post i posted about the shit at my staircase when i was lokced out of the house? My neighbours & my mum speculated that it was human shit. Yes, sick. HUMAN. Because it was alot. & it was all diluted. Cats or dogs dont shit that way. Gross shit.
Omg this post is full of the word "shit".
Holeass.
8:47 PM
But my dad was like, "Is paul twohill seriously retarded? Mentally retarded?"
I thought he was just making fun of him.
But my dad just continued like.. "No no, serious. Poor thing seh he. I really pity him. But good singaporeans pity him too, thats why he got through."
All the whil i was like, -OPEN JAWS-
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA.
Okay so. This is the 289347th time im watching Pirates Of The Caribbean. & the reason im watching again now on tv is because i lost the dvd ): so sad right to lose your fave dvd! argh. Aight. I thought i was gonna watch the World Cup finals. But puiiii. Italy & france??? NAH. Not any chance. hate both.
Oh btw, on the way home from the shop today, I saw two men "jolok"-ing a tree. Uhhh, using the stick to get the fruit form the treee. Haha i suck in malay. so yeah. They were like jolok jolok happily. & when i was looking at them, they kinda scowled at me. In a "get lost, kid." way. I backed off. But one of them started laughing at me. & gave this "MWUAHAHA KID" face. Omg, freaks. I straightaway stared back. & one fruit dropped on the guy;s head! I SWEAR :D hahahahahahahahahah i laughed.
That's why, I say i believe in karma. I've alwyas believed in karma.
SEEYOU BLEARY-EYED KIDS IN SCHOOL TOMORROWWWW :DDDDDDDD
YET, I've decided to make this simple layout. Fine, all my layouts are simple.
Sorry joel. I'll blog about that nextime ok?(:
Just a bit: I cant wait to be with my hot guy every night. He/
Now, that's true love. (:
7:58 PM
Oh yah speaking of parkway. While at the bustop (where i could see them lining up at the bubble tea stall), I did a great deed! HAHAHA.
I HELPED A BLIND MAN GO UP THE BUS. It was so coool :D I know i shouldnt be all that lala & happy about this. But shutup, it's my 1st time okay.
"196, 197, bedok interchange?"
"Yup. bedok interchange. It goes there. You're waiting for that bus?"
"Just tell me when the bus comes."
"Yeah, sure :) " I wish he could sense my smile or something.
Mish, corne & me sacrificed the many buses that came while waiting for 196 or 197. YAY.
Then when the bus came, I was like darn, should i be holding his hand? I was being an idiot sia. I was like. "Oh the bus is here. There there, the infront. Move a lil bit more. Yah move abit infront." Such a bloody idiot. He's blind, you idiot.
But eventually I held his hands while he went up the bus.(: He kept like, "thank you thank you thank you thank you." I should be given a box of chocolates by sara. Ohmygod, i love myself today.
Online life is so boring these days. & I dont mean msn. But just generally. No longer deriving pleasure from internet usage.
Night Study Programme where most of the online secfours dudes&dudettes are.
The rest of the world probably studying.
The other part of the world sleeping for the soccer matches.
The rest of the world having more life than me. bitch.
HOHO, STOP WHINING.
PLEASE SHAKE ME FROM THIS DREAMY UNREAL WORLD/FANTASY/DREAM I'M IN.
As much as I want someone to shake me up, I hate it when this certain someone tells me to "stop slacking lah." Hoho, I dont wanna get slammed by saying the person's name. And know why i hate it? Because he/she thinks he/she is the best. & everyone has to be like him/her. Oi oi, wake up. Everyone's different. Everyone's unique. Stop gauging people's abilities to yours. Guess what. I know you're already judging me as you're reading on. HOHO.
Advising is one thing.
Slamming/intimidating is another.
Hoho, moving on.
Sometimes, I wished I knew people's intentions. as in seriously. Whatever they do, you dont know what they think of you. I get paranoid yet suspicious at times. But most of the time, I'll ignore this suspicion & try to get a positive feedback out of this someone's mind.
I WISH I HAD THE POWER TO READ PEOPLE'S MIND. BUT THEN AGAIN, I WANNA BE ABLE TO STOP TIME, SO THAT I CAN SLEEEP ALLLLLLLLL I WANT.
Can you imagine a life if we didnt have to sleep?? OMG COOL! They wouldnt have to switch off the nighlights, or stop public transport, or have stupid curfews. Stuffs like that. HAHAHAHA.
Or maybe an 8th day. HAHAHA. Dude, i can sleep more. My love is a hot guy called SLEEP :DDDD
OKAY SHUT UPPPPP.
I kinda love the new Temasek socks. Although it;s stupid to just put there "TMS", cause whothehell would know whathehell TMS is. hahaha.
But it;s gorgeous cause it;s comfortable! although someone said it makes your feet sweat. Gross sial. Sweating of feet, causing soggy socks. WORD OF THE DAY: SOGGY SOCKS. Yay hey, i love those 2words. hahaha.
& Today. Omg soccer with 4v girls is hilarious. Screams, kicking of balls to nowhere, laughing & running. It was one of the bestest PE lessons I've ever had.
And and and aisya was like "I'm gonna attempt to slide. heh heh heh." Basically aisya & maryanne are the soccer people in 4v, but maryanne went for track competition. So yeah. Aisya run run, slide slide. And slided me. & we both rolled on the field infront of the goalpost. It was damn cute lah. HAHAHA. okay that's all.
Went parkway for the 18290374th time this week. I oly go there because the bustop towards east is like damndamndamn crowded. the bustop towards that side is empty. Much much much emptier.
Hohoho, saw thems. Yay, I'm a brave girl.(: But they were quite far by the time I saw lah. so lala. Wokay.
I'M BORED OF THIS ONLINE WORLD. NOT MSN. BUT GENERALLY. HMMPFFFHHH BITCH.
ENJOY THE WEEKENDS PEOPLE, AND PLEASE PLEASE, I KNOW EVERYBODY'S STUDYING. YAAARRRGHHH.
Check out this picture. Part of jordan&maryanne's display pic company. HAHAHAHA. Hilariousness :DDD
7:34 PM
This is what syakirah asked me to promote. So. If you're free on that day, check this event out. (:
9:59 PM
Like mish/corne/whoever says it.. Hating someone is like clenching your fist hard. It hurts.. Just let go bit by bit and it;ll ease all the pain.
Hohoho. Hypocrisy is one thing. Hating is another.
Sometimes I wish I had someone to truly hate. Almost everyone has someone they truly truly really hate.
I don't. I just sometimes find that person irritating. & I'll just get over it easily & fast.
So please. Stop all these hating, getting pissed, disliking, backstabbing, cold shoulder & silent vengeance.
Don;t make this an unhappy phase in your life.
8:05 PM
#1 Do the following WITHOUT complains
#2 Choose 5 people to do this after you completed
#3 Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged
#4 Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
FAVOURITES
Colour: Red, black, white.
Food: Chicken, hawaiian pizza, icecream, chocolate.
Movie: I LOVE MOVIES. loadsloads.
Day of the Week: SATURDAY!! :D
CURRENTS
Mood: fucking sick of school. & all of its nonsense.
Clothes: School uniform.
Desktop Picture: The photo i took of the beautiful&gorgeous sky,
Toenail Colour: Skin colour?
Surroundings: Brother's room, it;s blue ;relaxin, i love.
Annoyances: Stupid bug. always attacks.
FIRSTS
Best Friends: My Ernie soll, that cute thing from Sesame Street.
Crush: Primary 5. Currently, in my brother's clique =x
Movie: I dont remember.
Lie: I don't want to shit. (I hated shitting last time)
Music: Sesame Street playlist.
LASTS
Cigarette: Nah.
Drink: Strawberry ice blended Bubble tea.
Movie: Scary movie 4! HAHAHA LAUGHOUTLOUD.
Phonecall: Ayu(:
Played: Friday. Toys 'r us!!
HAVE YOU EVER
Dated One Of Your Best Friends: Yeah..
Broken The Law: Nope.
Been Arrested: Nopeeeeeee.
Skinny Dipped: Nope.
Been On TV : Nopeee.
Kissed Someone You Don't Know : The huge Ernie. He was smelly.
NUMERICAL-NONSENSICAL
Five Things You Are Wearing Right Now: School uniform, spectacles, panties, bra, school skirt.
Four Things You've Done Today: Went to school, shared a 20-piece nuggets at Mcdonalds, drank bubble tea & done this malay composition on Neighbours. HAHA.
Three Things You Hear Right Now: No doubt, jamal's irritating voice "dont write about me lah." & the whirring fan.
One Thing That You Do When You're Bored: Think of someone.
NEW SOCKS TODAY :DDD TEMASEK'S OWN SOCKS. OHMYGOD. HAHAHA. BUT HEY, ALMOST ALL SCHOOLS HAVE THEIR OWN SOCKS. I WAS LOOKING DOWN WHEN I WAS WALKING AROUND, CHECKING OUT THE SOCKS. WOOHOO CAN MAKE SURVEY ALREADY.
OKAY NIGHT STUDY PROGRAMME AT SCHOOL HAS STARTED. I'LL BE GOING SOME OTHER TIME. IT;S FREAKING 7-8.45PM AT LEAST. SO YEAH MAYBE I;LL GO ONE DAY., FORM A STUDY GROUP. SOMEONE WHO CAN TRULY MADLY DEEPLY HELP ME.
THIS IS RANDOM. BUT I LOVE AISYA FOR BEING A GREATGREATGREATGREAT x100000000000000000 FRIEND/CLASSMATE. HAHAHA SHE;S PROBABLY GONNA SLEEP WHEN SHE GETS HOME. OR WATCH WORLD CUP. SINCE SHE;S SUPPORTING FRANCE. BLUE&RED THINGY.
LALALA. GOODNIGHTS!!!
10:09 PM
The day has been smooth-sailing for all. & im proud and happy of that. aahaha.
Just a recap aight.
5pm- Met mish who was with syl at cineleisure.
Helped sell one chocolate. The Kitkat Cappucino-flavoured limited edition at $2.00 for the President's Challenge.(:
Took the mrt back to tanahmerah to return the tins & extra chocolates (if any).
6pm- A whole bunch of chocolates & tins all sprawled over the tanah mrt station there. bwahaha.
My darling junior gave me a box of it.
Another guy gave me a bar. yay :D Juniors these days.
6.30pm- Corne met up with mish & me.
We went to parkway for the bubble tea since chocolates make you thirsty as hell.
8pm- But ended up eating at Banquet. bwahah.(:
Wanted to watch movie. BUT it was fully booked by the time we called to book! bitch.
10pm- Headed to suntec.(: Ohmygod, it was empty lah. But it's so weird, being a sunday. hahaha.
10.30pm- Ended up at Esplanade! Hoho, so many NI TUs. I dontknow how to spell it but mish&dontknowwho started this "MUD" which is "MAT. NI TU is the exact translation of "MUD." HAHAHAHA. So many of them.
Sat down and sit sit sit. & emo a lil. & those two lovelies started this "hidayah's confused" campaign and psychological talk or something. I was pretty much psyhoed into saying things which I refuse to say or refuse to acknowledge. But now i think of it again, Im not not. Damn, DENIAL. Shoot me. "BANG!!"
11.15pm- They headed for dhoby ghaut (plaza singapura is there). & I headed to Somerset Cineleisure (again) to watch a movie.(: with lenis & rahmat. Hoho, SCARY MOVIE 4. Hilarious shit. bwahahahahaha. Actually the beginnings were the funniest. The mid was a lil mundane-ish. & ending was cutely hilarious again. HAHAHAHA LAUGHOUTLOUD.
1.50am- Walked to Plaza Singapura. Thank god I didnt have to walk alone, or I'd probably die. ghrahaha.
2.15ish- Reached Plaza Singapura. Entered the wrong glass door. Haha lenis & me thought it was locked. And for once, we almost panicked like shit. hahaha! Okay so. FOUND the right door.. eventhough it was OPEN all the while. -smacks hand on the forehead-
I came right on time. Because when i finally settle down at the pretty spot with the rest of the world, we started making. Wow it was fun lah :D Everyone had their different roles to play. Like arranging, giving out chocolates, collecting more chocolates, doing the outline. I was doing the latter. Okay(:
Finished the montage like a lil bit toooooo early. Haha very early lah. So mr oh agreed not to have a second tryout again. yay!(:
3.45am- It was time to sleep. Sleep, as they call it. Haha. AND THE FUN PART IS?? Sleep anywhere, on the 1st and 2nd level of Plaza Singapura :D woohoohoo. It was so fun lah. You can see people sprawled out on the flat (non-moving) travellator, infront of lifts, behind shop counters, infront of closed shops, beside the chocolate bar or just huddled together at the atrium. It was a cute sight, really :D HAHAHA.
Mish, corne & me decided to walk out. We needed somewhere to SIT! So we did, at the bustop. haha unglam. And then I, "sialahh, at a time like this, i wish we were at esplanade again." Then someone, "eh set ah, we walk." Woohoohoo, we really walked from Plaza Singapura to Esplanade. nyehubewahghaha.
Freaking hell. It took 40mins? No wait, 30 right? haha forgot lah. But still. The air was still. But we had no choice but to walk on lah right. Cant expect us to turn back, cause that'll be like fwuuahhh waste time right. We continued. Haha, think I AM RESILLIENCE, by our very own temaseksecondaryschoool. haha lame. And ohmygod, i didnt know they didnt light up Esplanade at night! fwuahk lame sia. hahaha.
4.40am- Haha people ohpe-ing, having sex, or simply mats. Hahaha a whole bunch. But gosh, it was quite a sad sight. Cause there were like a few homeless people or something. They were sprawled on at the On the Bay place. Fuck to those mats who wake them up at night.
Okay so, we found a space to sit again. yay (: I love this place. Especially at that time. The wind is just nice, the ambience is relaxing & the sight is gorgeous! :D So corne slept lah. But mish & me talked again. And again, it's about EVERYTHING. Mostly, we talk about the people we know. and start yalah gossiping, bitching. But it was fun. the people we talk about ranges... hahaha.
5am- And then. Sky turns red. Droplets of water start slapping our hands & heads. "raaaaaainnnnnnnnn!" Okay, except that we didnt scream cause it would be too chaotic. Omg, I was feeling so so so sorry for those homelesses. They were forced to move their everything into shelter. But pretty much couldnt get a wink of sleep.. ):
Okay so. We were freezing freezing freezing. But i got to sleep for 10mins. yay.(: So we headed to the mrt station, through citilink. But apparently the citilink door doesnt open at 6am! bitch. bitch. bitch. We were stranded.
5.50am- Ended up waiting for the bus lah. Bus 36. Actually they were alot of buses. So we waited.. ALL the buses except the buses that go to Plaza Singapura came. & then, I checked the bus information board again... The first bus only comes at 6.30am! Bitch.
"Cab ah cab. No midnight surcharge already right?" asks corne. And i flagged for a cab which happens to be a merc! yay:D "no midnight surcharge ah, dont have." YAYY.
6.15am- Got back to Plaza Singapura, where we split up. Mish & corne probably somewhere else.
I went to the bitchy girls gang. Haha, okay i call them bitchy gang cause they were bitching the whole night, i heard ;p haha. I sat down, or rather lied down there. There was hannah, farah, nani, izzati, sarah, aisyah manab, safirah & hakim. Nuriman came slightly later. (I saw him sleeping outside the toilet there there. bwahaha) All
7.45am- Slept for another 30mins, on safirah's laps. By the time I woke up, they were already in the toilet, washing up. Not WASHING up, since we cant bathe ): haha shit i hate not bathing. Managed to brush teeth and change only lor. & what did the rest of the girls do??
SHAMPOO THEIR HAIR. hahahaha!!! They were wetting their hair in the sink. Woohoohoo a bunch of black in the sink. They were washing each other's hair. & shampooing. Omg it was so funny!! HAHAHA. I didnt though. My wakeup/morning hair nicer than normal/night/afternoon hair. haha weird.
8.30am- BREAKFAST! My trustable mcdonald's hot tea(: Darren was being a whore with aisya's cam by taking everyone;s photo. hahaha. And aisya's a failure in supporting her RED&BLUE TEAM= FRANCE. nyehaihuihahah.
11am- Many more sitting arounds & waiting arounds.
11.30am- Started to make the montage!! WOOHOO :D Okay it was great. with the dramas. because the line was alwyasalwyas out and made a weird swish-swoosh heart. The montage was supposed to depict or show the President's Challenge logo. haha.(:
The greatest drama was lifting the rafia strings where the middle lot got stuck. Vanessa the
AND THEN, IT'S DONE :DDD Actually i expected it to be much bigger, but hey, it was over 10,000plus kitkat cappucino bars. That;s considered alot.
12.20pm- More waiting arounds for the guest-of-honour. Eventually alot of people came. There was this whole bunch of adults who WALKED on the chocolate bars. Ohmygod, they are the stupidest bitches. god. Haha, but they werent the only ones though. Joel stepped too. Plus, it was from one end to another. Omg it was funny hahaha. Mish & me screamed like mad. hahaha.
1.30pm- Finally, the guest-of'-honour arrived. And the show started. The usual guestofhonour speech, famous principal speech, TAG performance & lincoln/anand/anthony's band performance. Omg, im in love with the lead singer of TAG. Her voice is just.. *drools* :D hahaha.
And then they unveiled the LARGEST CHOCOLATE BAR IN THE WORLD which we saw the
3pm- Finally, it was the photo-taking by the media :d yay. & we had to pack the chocolates from the montage again. & to SELL. again. ahaha.
OVERALL, AN EVENTFUL DAY :D Omg so fun! & I am sooo sleepy now, I can barely open my eyes. But i need my Desperate Housewives cause it;s my favourite.. (: Nvm, i shall tahan somemore.
OKAY HAPPY GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW :D
Oh yes joolie, I'll do that question&answer thing nextime okay? VERY LONG POST here. hahaha seeya:D
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